Failure

I know I never post to my blog, but tonight I feel betrayed and also like a bit of a failure. Therefore, I must get this out so that I can sleep.

You see, I've been the President of the Ladies Auxiliary to the Veterans of Foreign Wars for one full term, and tonight we had our meeting to nominate and vote on officers...

A bit of back-story: when I first became a member of the Ladies Auxiliary, I was inducted on election night, which meant that I got to vote. Well, the lady who was really nice to me that first night asked me to vote for her for President and I did. Now that I think back, it seems like the same thing that happened to the sitting President that night just happened to me.

We received two petitions for membership tonight and one of the new members just happened to be there at the meeting (which rarely happens, most people join and never attend a single meeting). So she was able to come in and vote. Well, we get to nominations for President and a member nominates my opponent, then a member nominates me. Since the myself, the secretary and the treasurer were not expecting there to be any opposition, no one was prepared with slips of paper for a secret vote, except for my opponents mother, who happens to be that "nice" lady from when I was first inducted.

Please keep in mind that the only complaints I've had during office have been about a sign I repainted that was taken down at the Commander's request, and the fact that I am in the mens' office too much (I am the person the men selected to be Bingo manager and I also use the computer in the office for Auxiliary business, designing and printing flyers, etc.) Not one person has come to me with any complaints besides those two things, which I thought were taken care of.

I have worked very hard over the past year as Auxiliary President, making sure to fill out and send in our reports to State so that we get credit for all that we do, attending district and state meetings, learning all that I can in order to do justice to the job of President. I've also had some good fund raising ideas, patriotic ideas and youth activities ideas I brought to the meeting room and which were turned into reality.

I lost the election for President this year, but I feel like I was betrayed, stabbed in the back, talked about but not talked to. For these reasons - not because I lost the election - I cried tonight in the meeting and when it was over. I do not understand the need for someone to be so sneaky. Had either my opponent or her mother come to me and told me that she wanted the office, I would have been happy, even relieved. But to lose it the way I did...the way it happened...was just shady.

I may confront them about the way the elections were handled tomorrow night, I may not. I think it would make me feel better to point out the fact that I know. Shady shady people, and now one of them is in office.

Website

Okay, so I am going to try to update more often AND publish this blog as well as Hurry Up and Wait to my website, brieanne.net. Wish me luck on the site design! Happy New Year, Happy Valentine's Day and Happy Birthday to me soon!